When I was 20 years old, my Western doctor said if I wanted to get pregnant my only chance was now since I had so many cysts on my ovaries and was diagnosed with PCOS. I wasn’t ready at this time to get pregnant so I didn’t give it much thought other than knowing I didn’t fully trust his words. For the rest of my 20’s I didn’t meet anyone I wanted to have a baby with and was undecided if I even wanted to be a mother. Then at age 30, I intuitively got the message that I was going to get pregnant at age 35 and to start now healing more of what needed to be healed so I could have a healthy child birthing experience. At this time I didn’t even have a partner, but I listened to my intuition and began the process.
At age 33 I finally met someone I could see myself having a child with. I was already a Reiki Master in my 20’s and doing self healing on myself. It wasn’t until age 32 that I discovered BodyTalk and started getting a lot of sessions from various practitioners. When the founder of BodyTalk was coming to my city and offering sessions I immediately signed up. I remember laying on the table and the founder, John Velteim a funny Australian man, asking me “do you want to get pregnant? If you don’t let me know now and I won’t fix you.” I said I did and so he energetically re positioned my uterus and removed some cysts from my ovaries, as well as clearing some emotions and beliefs. I did other work too since then, but a few years later at age 35 I became pregnant just like my intuition told me I would a few years back.
The first trimester I was having lots of nausea and headaches. BodyTalk and Reiki helped lessen the frequency and severity. In my third trimester it helped with my low back pain and other soreness I was experiencing. My baby was born right on time and my full birthing experience took 8 hours. My midwife made it 30 minutes before my boy was born. She kept telling me over the phone to wait a bit and call her back when contractions became more regular. She reminded me yet again that first time moms usually always had a longer birthing experience. So I learned it's important to follow your intuition and demand that your midwife or doctor that is delivering your baby take your intuition seriously. She was a great midwife in many ways and I guess I just wasn’t meant to have a water birth like I had planned for.
I thought breastfeeding and postpartum were going to be the easiest part (well besides for the lack of sleep I kept hearing from other moms), but breastfeeding ended up being the most challenging for me. My baby latched right away but didn’t get any milk from me for the first two days. I hired a lactation consultant who made house calls and got distance BodyTalk sessions. I did get my milk supply going, but never was able to give my baby all the milk he needed. It was important to me that my baby get breast milk in the beginning so I found many wonderful mama’s who donated their extra breast milk. I was really angry at my body for not doing its job fully so I worked with my BodyTalk Practitioner to release these emotions and come to a place of acceptance and gratitude for everything my body did do right. I ended up just recently ending my breastfeeding days 3 years later so much longer then I thought I would be able to (he was only getting very little at the end but still I was producing!).
It's important to seek support during this vulnerable and, at times, challenging time. I am so thankful for all those that have helped me and continue to help me during parenthood. Many blessings to you wherever you are on your journey.